Nothing better than this, you feel just like the sun.

This, right here, right now, in this very second is the moment I have been waiting for for months.
To see you, to hold you, to kiss you.
To say your name and actually have you running toward me with your arms wide open.
To feel your arms wrap around me.
Every dream I have dreamt in the past five months is coming true.
Finally, when I wake up, I don't have to feel my heart sink deeper and deeper.
Instead, within twenty minutes of me waking up, I get to see your bright and smiling(don't forget mildly snotty) faces peering through the bars of your cunas.

Although it's not the same as the first time, my heart feels more happy than it ever has felt.
I get to be here with you for Christmas. I couldn't want anything more than that.
I couldn't want anything more than for you to be the first thing I see in the morning and the last thing I see at night. To hear you laugh, to see you smile, and to feel your hugs is the best Christmas present anyone could ever give me.

You are my light, life, and consume my entire heart.
I don't know how you did it, but you made me love you instantly, and my heart will always hold onto you.

I am here with you now.

Taking a moment to take a deep breath and realize what is surrounding me.... this is incredible.
I can't fathom this. I hear "Wendy!" When I see the casa kids, and it feels like I never left. It feels like time hasn't past at all, that they haven't grown at all. But they have. They are all so tall, smart, and old.

My uno babies are all in dos, and most of my dos babies are all in tres. Babies I never thought I'd be able to see walk, are walking, and babies I never thought I'd be able to see talk, are starting to talk. It's so weird to walk around the town. Nothing has changed. I know it's only been five months, but it feels like it's been years.

I miss my family. I really do.
I miss them quite a bit actually, but I know this Christmas is going to be the best I will ever have. It already is. Working all day everyday with these kids is perfect. It's all I wanted. Holding Katy all afternoon yesterday when she was sick made me feel at home. Comforting her when she was sick is something I have dreamed of for months. All I have wanted was to hold them when they are feeling sad, or sick. This week that came true.
I want them to feel my love for them, as much as I feel their love for me.

They are bigger than anything I've ever had come into my life. They change my life more and more everyday.
I am so grateful to them. For everything.
I love them.
They are the most amazing children on this earth, and I love them more than life itself.
I don't know what any of us(osso girls) would do without them.

Thank you mom, and dad, I MEAN SANTA, for giving me the best Christmas present you could have ever given me. You are the best parents in the world and I couldn't be more grateful for you two. You are why I am here, and the reason I met these little angels. I love you both and I hope you two and jeffrey have the best christmas! I miss you guys.I love you.

Until next week.